Depression during divorce in quarantine

Hey ladies

In early may, I left my husband because of his constant cheating and I just couldn’t take his emotional and intellectual abuse anymore. I flew to my parents to stay with them until I can get back on my feet but I’m so depressed. I had to leave my dog with my ex due to certain circumstances along with all of my belongings (I had to get out ASAP because of how bad it was) and filing divorce papers and splitting everything has been so heavy. We own two vehicles together but is trying to make me take the one that we owe over $17k on even though I do not have a job and no income and there is currently a hiring freeze. Making me feel bad that my parents won’t co-sign because they are trying to move and buy another house.

I’m currently in school online and I just can’t even pick myself up long enough to do my school work anymore and my GPA is declining rapidly.

I’m gaining weight because of my stress eating and I just feel like my life is falling apart.

I’m 22 years old. I knew I wanted to marry my ex because I loved him with everything that I had and wanted a family even with the obstacles we’d face. He isn’t the person that I thought he was and once I realized that, I started the process of moving on, it’s just that I feel like the weight of the world is crushing me down.

My mom and I are going to FL to get my dog and my things on Saturday and I feel nauseous and disgusted even thinking about seeing my ex.

I’m also trying my best to support my friends in the black community to the best of my ability. I’m an absolute empath and I just absorb all of it and I cry with them and for them in this shitshow with law enforcement.

I just.. I need some kind of positivity.