Long post ahead BUT please read and send some encouragement bc this lonely girl needs it..

So I’m an L&D RN and I took care of a patient who lied about being in contact with someone who was positive for COVID. Actually it’s was two people, one of them was her husband (who was in the room all night). When the patient came clean, she tested positive as well. So now I’m in self isolation and trying my hardest to protect my family from myself. (My husband and I had to move back in with my parents). My father has heart disease and I don’t think his body could take covid.

This is the one time in 15 months that I hope and pray I’m not pregnant. I already know there is gonna be so much anxiety when I do get pregnant since my miscarriage 19 months ago and haven’t been able to get pregnant since.

I just wanna baby so bad but I want it to have the best first home ever! I don’t want my baby to have to live in any sickness.

I think I chose a bad time to wean off Wellbutrin cause I’m stuck between anger for one persons lie, sadness bc I don’t think that I am pregnant, and fear for what could happen to me in the future.