Idk what to do with myself man 😩

I was in a narcissistic relationship for 10.5 years, so as you can imagine I feel pretty shitty about myself. I’m in a new relationship now and Early on I already asked if he had a type (skinny) because I’ve seen his ex/ a couple girls he’s liked in the past, says he doesn’t have a type. I’m average with a mom bod. Well I saw a picture he liked of a girl I know, he liked it before we were dating, but she’s skinny.....now I feel like he lied about his “type” and that he doesn’t like my body because I don’t look like her....I just need some advice on how to self love man 🥺 I can’t keep feeling like this ya know? ADVICE PLEASE