So I feel very guilty that I seem to love my son more than my daughter. It not that I treat her any different its just that I feel I had to fight to keep my family together and my pregnancy safe that I have more affection for my son.

So my family don't really like my husband. They feel that he isn't good enough for me. But his an amazing husband and a good father. His made many sacrifices for his family than they know.

So the fact that we were having the second baby my mother said to me straight no you can't be having a second baby.

My sister said to me oh you so fucked up. I mean that rude.

So we went through some financial difficulties and I had to go stay with my mum and gran for a little while. And the family came to know that we having some money troubles. So the first thing they were forcing me to do is abort the pregnancy. And divorce my husband. Which I never agreed to.

So what I did. I waited for hubby to tell me okay. I packed my daughter and myself and all of our stuff and left. I had left a note telling them not to call or try to find me as they had out me through enough hell. I wanted nothing to do with them. My own mother was forcing me to abort my child. Just made it so much worse. That's why I feel a stronger bond with my son as I had to fight to keep him alive.

I had no support from my family what so ever but now they forget what they had put me through and love to see my son. And my mother forgets that the grandson she now holds is the same grandson she wanted to kill.