i’ve been telling myself i’m just early since my ultrasound friday when they saw a yolk sac and i was measuring a week behind my lmp and then today 4 days later my gestational sac grew a little bit still just a yolk sac now i’m scheduled 4 days later again so i go monday morning to check if there’s been and progress.. well laying here i’m like i went on friday which was 4 years to the day my dad passed away and then i went today which was his funeral 4 years ago and now monday i go again and it would have been his birthday ... and i’m not very religious or believe in signs but it still makes me feel someway. i know i may still be early but i just feel i’m not going to get good news monday and i’m trying to focus on that i have 3 beautiful babies here at home with me and i’m more upset at the fact that i have to start back at square one... so i’m crying mad at myself for getting excited and for feeling pregnant i know if it the pregnancy doesn’t develop it is best it happens now and my body is doing the correct thing but it still feels like failure ....