Hi guys, I am 32 and very seriously trying to conceive. I have been trying for a year but not really giving it my all.

I have a lot of fears of having a child. I have chronic depression and panic disorder and need lexapro and very low dose klonopin to function. I have gone off of them multiple times (for 2 years my last attempt and had a complete nervous breakdown).

I know I'll have to stop klonopin soon, I can cope. Im more scared of being an inadequate mom, messing up somehow, have increased panic during/after pregnancy. I am scared I'm already more susceptible to post partum.

I know these thoughts come from a place of false fear, its just hard to overcome, it lingers in the back of my head. Can anyone else relate who is pregnant, TTC or maybe someone who has had these issues and already has a child? How is it coping with mental health and children?

Xo