A little background information, husband and I have been on and off trying for a baby. We’ve had three miscarriages in the past. I have an under active thyroid problem and haven’t been taking medication for it because of lack of insurance. (That’s another long story)

But last week I was extremely nauseous all week. Ginger ale was my best friend while at work. One of those days I was extremely lightheaded all day. My husband kept saying it was cause I needed to eat, I did and it did not help. (My husband is also one of those guys who thinks you need to have sex every single day to be able to get pregnant. He’s a pain in my butt.)

Anyway today things seemed pretty much the same as it’s been. Light nausea off and on all day. Until tonight.

Two things I really wanted tonight. Two things that are totally different, Chinese food and salsa and chips. The smell of which has been legit making me sick. The smells were disgusting, like I had to not only throw them out but wrap them up in there own bag and then throw them out.

Everyone at work last week before they even knew anything was up kept saying “your pregnant!” I want to be pregnant, I really really do. But past trauma from my losses has got me worried. I’m worried I’ll worry myself into another miscarriage if I am pregnant and I am also worried it will come up negative. I think I’ll be crushed if I take it and it’s negative. Can’t I just be one of those “I didn’t know I was pregnant” ladies.

My periods because of my thyroid comes randomly. Honestly I’m basically at a 56 day or so cycle. But that’s a give or take situation. I’m just so stressed!

What do you ladies think I should do?

Suck it up and get a test or wait longer cause it could be a fluke? I am past the point where I should have gotten my period.