Addicted to testing..

I think im addicted to taking pregnancy tests.. iv now stopped tracking ovulation but i still cannot stop using pregnancy tests.. i test every day. im not even sure how many dpo i am but cd 24 i do it every month i think im losing my mind specially after chemical last month.. i just want another baby.. if it happens i think il get my tubes tied after so that i dont have to go through the pain or heart ache of numerous mc again. Everyone around me is either pregnant or having babies and i just feel lik when will it be our turn or what have i done so wrong in life that this keeps happening.. (havin a shitty day)