So, my sister is getting married in July, and I am so so so happy for her, I’m not an emotional person and I cried when she came in to tell me they got engaged and showed me her ring. Just so elated for her.

The difficulty I’m having is that the way she has planned/is planning things it is VERY unlikely I’ll be able to be there.. I’m a single mom to two young boys (3.5 and 9 months), haven’t been able to find work since my youngest was born (this is the longest I’ve not had a job since I was 16..I’ve applied to nearly 200 jobs and I could vomit at the thought of that alone and how that makes me feel) I’m currently on state aid, and i have court for my youngest on the 19th in which the mediator recommendation is likely what they will go with despite my concerns of his dads alcoholism which makes her wedding day on a visit night and the wedding is out of state. I don’t know how court works or what I’ll be allowed to do but my understanding is that legally I cannot go to this wedding without his permission, then if that weren’t a hurdle enough financially there is NO way I can do this without putting myself/my boys needs out. Let alone the way the plans are in absolute no way counter in children..I mean I can roll with it but it’s challenging enough without completely pushing the limits on their sleep.

She’s not included me in many of her ideas or planning or anything. I’m just a little hurt I guess that it almost seems like she doesn’t Want me involved or even there. I’m having a hard time continuing being excited and supportive without letting the hurt get to me.

I know its not about me and it’s selfish to be upset/hurt that it’s very likely we won’t be able to be there and she doesn’t seem to care, or maybe she doesn’t realize but I have made it clear I don’t know if I’ll be able to be there let alone afford it even if I can. But I need advice on how to get past the hurt and just be happy for her. I don’t want to spoil her day and joy..