My husband is bipolar 1 suffers from depression ocd etc. But mostly I think he's narcissistic to make story short please don't judge me married 2 yrs together 4. I seriously feel worthless not good enough i gained 50 pds. I dont take care of me i dont wear makeup dont dress up im like zombie. For the past yr hes been blaming me for everything but he treats his mother sisters right but me he insults me i ask my self why am I still here. Im invisible around him he doesnt kiss me hold my hand or anything i wish I never crossed paths with him now its hard because I do love him he says he loves me but I dont feel loved its just words to me. I ask God why when I shouldn't we make these choices in life. But im a good person i would give my shirt to u if u needed it. Why can't I just have a normal life. Nothing motivates me anymore am I depressed I feel lonely in my own house that he always kicks me out