I’m mostly here to rant.

My boyfriend & I have been together 6 months. We work together, when we first hung out it’s been non stop since. I’m at his house everyday ALL DAY. At the beginning we didn’t put a label on things. I wasn’t sure what we were just thought we hung out ALOT. I went to a basketball game with a friend from work. She convinced me that talking to this other guy would be a good idea. One thing lead to another an we hung out. ( hint hint.) His cousin/ roommate was there and told him I left with said other. KHe began going through my phone as I didn’t have a password. He seen me talking to a few other people. He asked me to delete my social media’s as that’s where I was talking to other people. I did. We got new phones new numbers I paid for. He still found one guy I had a one night stand with giving me relationship advice. He was very jealous n thought it was more because we talked sexual at one point before him. A girl we worked with said he was snap chatting her telling her if he wasn’t with me he would shoot his shot. He deleted all social media after this. I got curious n went through his phone after he took a trip to Vegas I allowed him to share his journey on Snapchat with agreement he would delete after. I went through his phone after I seen he still had it. He was messaging a girl two days prior. No conversation was saved but a naked photo of her from 2017. I asked him to delete it. He did. We went to a cookout a few hours away where his family lived. They then said they sent him something on Facebook. We agreed to delete ALL social media awhile ago. I seen him scrolling through his home page to find he had messenger. I said nothing. I feel like our sex isn’t the same as before. In the beginning I got his name tattooed on me, he said he would get mine. Due to finances n the pandemic he hasn’t.

Now I’m pregnant it’s defiantly his. I FEEL STUCK. I sent him nudes after a shower he opened it and literally hasn’t said a word. We are in person. UGH. I know I need to just leave. I can’t help but feel like I haven’t tried enough for our daughter.

Any advice? Is this fixable? Am I over reacting to everything since I was doing wrong?

Thank you for reading.