I hate my body

I had my son almost a year ago and I have tried so hard to lose weight but I just can’t. The more I try the more I hate myself. I went from fitting into a size 12 jeans to a size 20. I hate myself. I’m ashamed of myself. I can never look cute in anything I wear. It’s even worse because I had a c section so I have that nasty muffin top. I just can’t deal with this. I just want to love myself.

Can someone give me tips on how they lost the baby weight?! I NEED IT