My TTC journey is not what i expected it to be. For two years we agreed on 'if it happens it happens'.....

It didn't..

I went for a yearly gyne check up only to find out i needed to have my right ovary and tube removed due to a large cyst.

Six months later, i got a positive pregnancy test. I took SOO many tests, i was in such disbelief.

Eight weeks later, i miscarried.

I was completely heartbroken, every feeling of depression i was there. It took 3 1/2 years, just to see that double line. It seemed like it quickly got taken away before i could even share the news.

Here i am now, 35 years old.

I have low ovarian reserve. Elevated FSH.

I feel like the hits just keep coming. I keep striking out. I feel like i can't catch a break.

Within the next few cycles I'm supposed to have an <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. I don't know if i can handle a negative outcome.

I don't know if I'll even be a candidate to have <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>.

I don't know if i can continue to fake smile when asked 'when are you having kids?!'

Like, dammit.

I'm trying..

I'm trying..

To stay positive

To be optimistic

To be hopeful

But this is hard. I don't feel like you ever heard about infertility struggles, until YOU are the one struggling.

I'm trying...