My husband has crazy outbursts of accusations and bringing up things from Way in the past when I didn’t even know him, and half the stuff is stuff he’s made up in his mind.

Today, I worked my ass off in a very busy hospital clinic. I rushed home to bring him some food so it wouldn’t be cold. He ate, didn’t say thank you, and went upstairs to take a nap. I get it, he’s tired from a state week at the prison but you can’t be more tired than I am at this point. Anyway. Before he went upstairs he said, “why didn’t you tell me you had a Gmail account?? I went through your computer and that popped up” me, confused, said I didn’t know what he was really talking about. I have a chrome laptop that my daughter uses mainly, and on each user profile it’s a SET gmail icon at the bottom of the screen. I don’t have a gmail account set up or even linked so when you click the app icon, it pops up saying sign in with your email address and create gmail blah blah. And clearly when you’re on my daughters account her gmail immediately pops up on hers since it was actually configured. So since the app came with the stupid laptop and it was telling me to create a gmail account he started saying “if I find out you’re doing something that will make my decision to divorce you even easier” I told him before never bring up divorce unless he’s got the papers already cause I don’t do anything but listen to negativity and accusations of things I never did and never would do!! I told him to stop it and to stop making me cry all the time. I feel so alone beside him because he doesn’t comfort me. He tells me to shut up stop crying and that he can never rest. All I wanted to do was be next to him. Now I’m downstairs bawling with my eyes burning from mascara. I don’t think he cares about me and I don’t know why. He’s too caught up in his past and always thinks ill do bs his ex wife did. I’m so drained 😢 and I feel like I am so worthless he always tells me to change and I do everything he asks but he still makes me cry for NOTHING!