Y'all the state i am in is in stage 3 i believe if opening up again. Thank God. We didn't really get hit hard and honestly out where i live people aren't too concerned on the whole virus cause we are from the country and small towns. But. Anyway. I don't have my diploma yet because i couldn't afford it.. and the only way i can get my diploma is by working so i can pay for it.. its $92. To get started back to classes and $140 a month plus every 1st of January it cost a huge lump sum to pay it off.. it cost a total of $3,500 to get my diploma but its pretty much my only option as I've tried GED classes and they didnt do anything for me. But im even more stressed because a lot of the jobs hiring and paying well i could apply and get hired on... IF ONLY I HAD MY DIPLOMA!! Stores aren't hiring many people who dont have a diploma or GED and its discouraging... and on top of that i really need a FT or PT job as my boyfriends job has only put him to work 5 hours of work mabye total this week and he gets paid weekly.. like he may of made $100 this check.. like we have to get a place to live and set up for baby on top of paying for our phone bills and insurance and gas for doc appointments and him going to work. I spent two hours tonight doing a resume and applying at jobs and praying and hoping i can find something even though im almost 23 weeks.. at this rate im going to have to forget about being a full time stay at home mom like we both wanted and that idea honestly shatters my heart... but i cant handle the stress of not knowing what we are gonna do. We have until September to get into a place because we are due middle of October and no room for a baby or baby stuff where we live now.. we barely have room for our clothes and shoes and thats it... like my car im trying to sell is my storage for my baby stuff i have.. its just so stressful and worrisome to me right now and its going to be hard for me to find a job being this far along but yall... i need the extra income if we're going to be okay until he find something else..

Okay my stresseful venting is over.