I’m so tired of feeling like a single parent, even though I have a fiancé, who is my 9 month olds father, and we all live together.

I’m a stay at home mum, not by choice but due to Covid, I’m back to work on 1st July. I’m also nearly 14 weeks pregnant. My partner is a farmer, so he can work crazy hours certain times of the year. He’s currently in a quiet spell, he’s had a week off last week, and has only worked 4 days this week (10-4). He doesn’t realise how being a mum is a full time job, he thinks because he works he’s the only one that works hard. He’ll come home at 4 and sit on his phone watching tv all night, whilst I feed him/our little one, give our little one a bath, put him to bed, wash bottles/dishes and get everything ready for the night. And then I’ll be the one up all night with him (he’s not a great sleeper). His job finishes as soon as he leaves, whereas being a mum, you never get time off! I honestly can’t remember the last time he fed/changed/looked after our little one, even with all the time off he’s had. He seems to chose to be a parent when he wants to be.

He’s started getting back into fishing, which I have no problem with! It’s nice he has a hobby he can unwind with. But it’s starting to become a weekendly thing, and I’m expected to be up all night with the baby, then be up to look after him at the crack of dawn so he can go fishing... i wouldn’t mind if it was later in the morning, but why so early when I’ve been up all night?! It frustrates me also because if I want to go anywhere or do anything I have to ask for permission, I have to ask if he’s okay to look after the baby, whereas he just tells me he’s going wherever he’s going and he’ll be gone all day. If I did that there would be hell to pay!

His brothers don’t help, they haven’t got kids or responsibilities, and they’ll have a go at him or make him feel stupid if he says no because he wants to be with his family. Like he’s pathetic for wanting to help me out/spend time with us🤷🏽‍♀️

Just feel so fed up and alone😞