I guess this story is just a way for my sad self to cope with my problems lmao😂😂 I’m not ready to talk about my sexuality to my family or anyone else sooooo here I am. Hope you like it...I just want to share and find a way to let this feeling somewhat free without really telling anyone I knew. Thought this would be a good start...🙃 Hope you enjoy! If not no worries😂

I’ve always had a crush on her. She’s been my best friend for almost a year now, and I can’t stop thinking about her. The countless laughs, cries, and problems we’ve been through together just makes our connection stronger. Mia has always been shy towards others, but definitely more open towards her friends and family. Especially when it comes to her love interests. I know that she loves both men and women, (similar to me) but I just don’t know if she feels the same way I do about our relationship. I’ve never had thoughts about being with another girl before I met her, let alone coming out to anyone. I love that she has that kind of courage. I admire that about her. I just don’t know how she would react if I told her about my feelings. I don’t want to ruin our friendship. Not being with her due to quarantine has definitely not helped me cope with this either.

Thankfully we were finally able to hang out for the first time in 6 months. I wanted this moment to be special. I had missed her so much. I decided to set up left over Christmas lights in the trees of our old hang out in the forest. I spread out a picnic blanket with a few snacks and I also set up a white sheet to act similar to a movie screen. My dad has a projector that I thought I could barrow for the night. I thought it would be fun to just binge watch a few tv shows or maybe just have a movie night. I thought this whole thing was a bit cheesy at first, but deep down, knew she would like it.

I was over the moon excited to see her, but I hesitated to knock on her door. A rush of anxiety came over me and I nearly had to force myself to knock on her door. It seemed like an hour before she opened the door. Thankfully she did. She stood there, her hand still resting on the door knob, staring back at me. It had been so long since I had seen her physically in front of me vs through a video screen. She was gorgeous. I almost forgot what she looked like in person. She wore nothing more then a red flannel and a white tank top with some jeans, but that was plenty for me. She could be wearing the worst outfit in history and she would still look beautiful. She smiled, and I realized I was staring. She reached out her arms for a hug and I laughed. We hugged and soon after hopped in my car. We talked the whole way. I had never felt so free in that moment. Talking to someone in person felt so much more real then behind a screen. My feelings kept distracting me from our conversation. I kept thinking about what her touch would feel like...what her kisses would feel like. She got so excited when we got there. Her face light up and she jumped out of the car. She quickly sat down and curled up with a blanket I had placed for her earlier and my heart just melted.

I sat down next to her, “this is so cozy, you always plan the best surprises” she smiles. “You know you didn’t have to do all this, right?”. I nod and soon after, I caught myself staring at her again. The way the light hit her face was mesmerizing. I looked away as soon as she looked back at me. I knew that if I were to make eye contact with her now, I wouldn’t be able to contain myself. “Hey you ok?” she asks. I nod, looking down at the blanket beneath us. I notice that she hesitates, but then she carefully places her hand on my cheek and guides my face so I’m now facing her. “Livi I know you. You’re not ok, what’s wrong?”. I place my hand on hers, which is still resting on my face. I close my eyes and lean into her hand. I’ve always imagined what her touch would feel like, but nothing compares to the feeling I was feeling now. “I’ve just missed you, that’s all”, I smile a little, I felt more relaxed with her then I had in a while. We’ve never been this close physically. I sighed softly, I was so happy to be with her again. I suddenly find myself pulling her body closer to mine. I need to be closer to her. I look up to her eyes, she brushes her thumb against my cheek. My heart was racing. I couldn’t contemplate what was about to happen nor control my body. She rests one hand on my cheek and the other gently on my thigh. She tightens her grip slightly on my thigh and without hesitation, she kisses me. I sighed softly as her lips met mine. I had longed for this moment ever since we met. I pulled her closer to me, my hands rest on her hips. Suddenly she pulls away “I’m so sorry”. She looked so worried. “There’s nothing to be sorry for, Mia” I smile “I don’t want you to be uncomfortable”, I pause, “we can stop”. I frown a little as I say this, but I definitely didn’t want to hurt her in any way. She smiles as I say this and she kisses me again, my heart feels like it’s beating out of my chest. I slowly begin to summon the courage to explore her body. I kiss down her jaw and suck lightly on her collarbone. She presses against my kisses which only makes me more excited. Our kisses get deeper, more passionate. Her hand leaves my thigh and moves to my hair, pulling at my tight brown curls. Her tongue slipped swiftly, in and out of my mouth. I moaned quietly at the feeling, my hands gently massaging her perky tits. She kept moving closer and closer, causing me to fall back on the soft blanket I had laid earlier. I bit my lip, smiling up at her, pulling at her flannel slightly. She sits back a little, my legs between hers. She rests on my hips and holds my hands on either side of my head. As she catches her breath as she watches me. I swear she could not be more gorgeous. She almost looked lost for a moment. I gently break out of her grip, wrapping my arms around her back. She gasps softly at my movements. I press my forehead to hers and whisper, “...let me please you”. I feel her shiver slightly at my words. I grin and kiss her soft lips, then kiss my way down her neck once more. Her head tilts back and my arms hold her waist. I smile on her skin as I hear moans escape her lips. I kiss both of her nipples through her tank top before looking up to her eyes to ask for permission. She nods and I swiftly pull her tank top over her head. I lay her back and pull my light sun dress over my head. She reaches forward and pulls at my underwear slightly, which drives me crazy. I lean down to kiss her again and she whimpers a little when our lips separate, I love that. I kiss down her chest. Her back arches higher and higher with each kiss, as I get closer and closer to her sweet spot. I grin and swiftly unclasp her lace black bra which matches her dark hair. She whimpers at my movements and bites her lip as she watches me. I lean down once again, my lips finding her nipples quickly. “Oh my god” she moans. This only encourages me, I make my way down her chest and stomach, leaving a trail of kisses behind. I look up at her my eyes ask permission once more and she nods, her hand gripped tight around her black pixie cut hair. I moan quietly in response as I unbutton and slide her jeans down her smooth legs. “Mia tell me if you need me to stop”. I didn’t want to hurt her in anyway, I wanted this experience to be pure ecstasy for her. She nods in response. I smile and kiss the outside of her underwear, hitting her perfect spot. She moans softly and I watch as she places a finger in her mouth. We lock eyes and I pull her underwear down. I lick my lips slightly taking in her shaven pussy. I kiss the inside of her thighs as I look up at her. I grin and with out warning I bury my lips in hers. She gasps gripping the picnic blanket and arching her back.

To be continued...