Venting

Shelbie • 02.03.2020👼🏻 🌈 04.28.2021🌈

Today is such a hard day and I don’t know why . I’ve been using soft discs to try to help with TTC. I don’t know what I’m going to do if it doesn’t work. I can’t take this anymore. It’s so heartbreaking , I can’t help but think the baby I lost in feb was my ONLY chance to have a baby and I’ll never get lucky again 😞 every time I see a pregnancy announcement or anything I’m so heartbroken and want to cry. Feeling this crappy makes me wonder if I am pregnant again because I know the first time before I found out I was so so so sad and then I found out and was wanting to be pregnant more than ever . That’s exactly how I’m feeling 😞 but I don’t think I am I just think I’m sad and disappointed in my body😩😭 I just want my rainbow 🌈