Hey I’m having kind of a hard time lately and I have some romantic issues with the guy I like.

I’m sorry it’s gonna be a bit long to explain but I don’t know what to do are how to act and I’d love some advices.

Okay so it all started 1 year ago in February. I’d just broke up with my bf and was coming out of long difficult relationships and wanted to finally have fun. I met this guy at a bar (he is the barman manager there) a night he was not working and we immediately laughed and everything and he asked me out.

The date was great and we had a connection went home didn’t have sex bc I said no and he didn’t forced or anything even a little. We talked he confessed about some things anyway. We saw each other few times next had sex but always kissed and cuddled and all and one time after he wanted to give me all I was missing and he had like even his phone lol he discreetly talked about relationship and I got scared and did shit. He ghosted me for a week and then I saw him again at his bar he sent me a message we talked he apologized and we started seeing each other again but with no kissing but we cuddled and spent night together me in his arms etc. Then he was jealous when a guy flirted with me, his colleagues who I became friends with know they can’t touch me cause he would kill them and he’s almost bestie with my bestie. We spent all our time together or on the phone and all.

Then we had a huge argument where I had most of the fault bc didn’t listen to him and got in danger and I told him it was over between us. He was so mad he ignored me got himself a girlfriend and all. Then he forgave me and we started being friends again but there was still this crazy thing between us that never left.

He broke up with his gf and we were still so close and all then in December he began calling me babe and my love sometimes until we had two or three moments where we almost kissed.

Then I told him liked him on text messages and he ran away bc he got scared and said I was like his sister. Then he said my bestie he didn’t want to loose me and couldn’t try me with to risk loosing me.

We saw right before the quarantine and he was so happy to see me again he missed me a lot.

Then during the quarantine we talked again and FaceTimed and there was again a tiny thing but he had a gf who he broke up with as soon as the q ended.

We saw and it was more and more concrete until he kissed me at a party with friends and then told me we needed to have a serious talk.

After that I sent him three messages he never responded bc he’s scared as he told my bestie and he said other this she won’t say bc it’s been said in confidence but she doesn’t understand his actions given what he told her.

I went back to his bar yesterday with my two besties and when he saw me he gave lightened and he got so happy but I told him I didn’t want to talk to him and he was messing with me. As soon as I said that he turn all serious and his eyes filled then he left all head down. Later I told him I wouldn’t speak to him until we have that serious talk and he apologized a lot for not responded me and so direspecting me this way (he never did before). When I left he gave me a kiss in the air and then he bend over to watch me leave and I turned around to look at him and ended up eye to eye and he got aooooo f***ing happy I turn to look at him

Now I don’t know what to do next time I see him or how to act ???

And how does he feel omg I’m lost will you olease help