SAHM problem

my fiancé wants me to stay home with our son, hes very colic and high needs, needs medication etc. he said he feels safer with me home due to coronavirus, we don’t want daycare bc of horror stories and can’t trust anyone to make the right calls about being safe from the virus...I completely agree and would love to stay home with him, I can’t even imagine leaving him. But I’m still mourning at the fact I’ll lose my job, im one of the top sales there and I’m loved by everyone! I know it’s what’s best for our son, but how do I become ok with losing my job?