Forgetting I’m pregnant

I am 20weeks pregnant today. I love my baby but sometimes I forget I’m pregnant. I love him so much already and even though he’s inside me i feel like my BPD gets in the way of me feeling like I’m actually with him or of us spending time how I wish we could. I’m trying to handle my stress but my situations aren’t easy right now. I just pray and need God to help me help myself and make things better. My emotions are overbearing. Can anyone relate ?