So like 2 weeks I found out I’m having a girl and little by little I been trying to accept reality that’s there’s no going back and accept I’m having a girl I really wanted a lil boy and I been getting slowly happy about it and today my mom showed me some new clothes for babies she had put away for presents and gave all to me but seeing it didn’t make me so emotional like when I had my son and it’s annoying because I been trying so hard to push myself out of this hole but I keep getting dragged back in it ☹️☹️ and I feel bad because I want to be thankful I have this baby on the way and it’s healthy no complications I’m just tired of it