Today we got out of the house... well kind of. We ran some errands and did curbside pickup for everything but still, we walked thru the door and went somewhere.⠀ ⠀ Kerry sat in the car with Cameron while I ran into the post office to check our P.O. Box and this was the first public place that I’ve gone in THREE WEEKS. Y’all I’m trying here, really trying but I feel like to keep my family completely safe, I stay home. But staying home makes my anxiety worse. Being out in public felt heavy and I felt like I had to focus on my breaths just to get through it. Growing up I always trusted my parents and thought that adults just didn’t have fear - now I’m the parent and adult and am trying not to instill fear or anxiety on my child and it’s HARD.⠀ ⠀ “This will get easier” I’ve told myself x83736⠀ ⠀ I never thought that when we finally had our baby that there would be a pandemic but I know that I’m not the only one struggling during this time.⠀ ⠀ At one stop (cough, cough Golf Galaxy because Kerry can’t live without golf) I nursed him while Kerry ran in to get something and it occurred to me that I haven’t had to nurse him in the car since he was 5 days old and we went to the pediatrician. Things have changed so much, both of us have learned so much about nursing (and our new life together) since then.⠀ ⠀ 17 weeks old tomorrow ✨⠀ ⠀ P.S - I’m aware he doesn’t match whatsoever and that he’s a mess. No one sees us so we just wear whatever 😝