Feel like I've failed my Son.

My Son started school last September, I knew it would likely be difficult for him as he's one of the youngest in his year (July baby) but he didn't have any siblings/cousins/friends close enough in age to help him. Up until he was nearly 3, we were almost completely isolated due to where we lived. Most days it was just me and him, because his dad worked long hours and often had to stay away over night because at the time he didn't drive and public transport was terrible in the town we lived in.

We finally moved, shortly before our Son turned 3 and we were finally able to take him to groups, and get him enrolled in a good nursery. He only had a year in nursery before he started school.

Today, I got his first school report, they did it from start of school to before lockdown started so it is more accurate to the teachers knowledge and not including the homeschooling. And at this age, his school report is more of a reflection on me, than him... He is so far behind in literally everything. He's not "on track" for a single thing. I haven't kept on top of the homeschooling while the lockdown is in place. I wanted better for my Son, but this just proves that I can't be. I wanted him to flourish in ways I never did. Instead he's stuck with a mother that couldn't even finish college, and never learnt how to study, if I couldn't do that how am I meant to teach him? I'm holding him back, and I don't even know how to help him.

He's only 5, and thanks to me, he's already off to a terrible start...