Feeling defeated

When i was pregnant with my first (RIP) my nipples were sore around the time my AF was due. My breast also started to get bigger due to me having smaller breast they grew fast.

I also felt my organs moving i swear i did like preparing for the baby. Also felt gas like but for someone who was never pregnant i just new once i found out i was that everything i felt was me gearing up to carry my baby.

Here i am trying two years later feeling defeated at 6dpo with no symptoms. I know that’s kind of early but i wish back then i had tracked to see how far i was when i felt my nipples sore and gas like movement.

I just feel like my body will always indicate pregnancy for me and I’m indeed not pregnant. 😢