ive been needing to talk to someone but i feel alone and scared. the only person i could talk to doesnt really talk to me anymore.. ive struggled with self harming since fifth grade. ive been clean for about five months but i’ve been having thoughts about suicide and self harming. my family is so toxic.. they all judge me on my body,weight,looks,everything. they treat me like i’m unwanted. whenever i want to go out with friends to get away from them my mom says no because i’ve been in bed all day. even if ive cleaned the house she doesn’t let me out. i’m losing friends because of them. they don’t realize because im afraid to speak up for myself or about it. i stay in my room to avoid everyone and everything and they call me lazy for not coming out but when i do come out they start judging me for everything. i’ve stayed in bed not wanting to go out or do anything. i cant do this anymore. i’m tired of everything. i’m in so much pain.