Orgasming... but in my sleep🥵

I have been single for almost two years and my ex made me O every👏🏼 single👏🏼 time👏🏼... it was great. My only issue is now that I’m single I CANNOT ORGASM!!!! So I have NOT orgasmed in almost TWO YEARS (it’s really rough out here).

I can only have vaginal orgasms & the three times I’ve had sex since my relationship ended, no dice. I’m abnormal as hell and my clit is not very sensitive. I have tried literally all of the toys and I truly don’t enjoy being eaten out. And before anyone says anything, yes I have tried EVERYTHING & I have been eaten out literally hundreds of times and nothing. I can only O during sex.

Sooooo long story short, I dream about orgasming.... a lot. I have dreams about full orgasms and the sensations are most definitely there. I usually wake up right after and it feels so real. Sometimes I wake up roughing myself & super wet. I’m also terrified that I’m MOANING in my sleep. I’m not a quiet person when I do O in real life so I’m so scared that I’m loud af🥵

Anyways, I just really need to be able to get myself off apparently because it is probably my most consistent/ recurring dream (2-3 times a week).

Does anyone else experience this???? I’m not looking for a serious relationship & I don’t have sex often soooo.... DROP YOUR DILDO RECOMMENDATIONS LADIES AND MAKE MY DREAMS (literally) COME TRUE!!!