Videoing us having sex !!

So my other half decided he wanted to video us having sex which is strange cuz he hasn’t ever spoken about doing that before (we had a falling out like a day ago but solved it, decide to have sex today first time after argument)

I felt a bit awkward and uncomfortable but he then told me he would delete it after. At the time I enjoyed it and it felt different knowing we had a camera (strange i know 😂 it was just different)

After, he told me he wanted to keep them and I kept asking why he even asked to film it cuz it’s not like him and pretty much begging him not to show anyone or Put them anywhere even if we have a argument (out of anger), before people say that there are trust issues there isn’t !! I do trust him definitely but TMI ALERT I’ve had someone film having sex with me while I was passed out, after I found out he done it we had a huge argument and he posted it EVERYWHERE all over social media and even on Porn hub.

So that’s why I was a bit hesitant in doing it to begin with and after when he told me he don’t want to delete them.

Hes promised me he wouldn’t ever think of doing that even in a “hot moment” but I just don’t know how I feel... some parts of me are completely okay with it and trust him then other parts I just overthink and that’s why I’m stuck...

Thoughts ?