i slept with my ex...

so my ex and i ended on good terms, he broke up with me due to his mental health. it was a bit of a roller coaster for a bit as i was upset and hurt (and he did something that really hurt me as well), but we met last week and we just talked for a few hours and agreed that we were good as friends.

however, we were texting last night and one thing lead to another and he asked me if he could come over. i turned him down and said maybe another time, as i didn’t want to sneak him in (i live with my dad - i’m 20 but i didn’t want to explain why my ex was coming over and didn’t want to have him over without asking).

tonight he asked to go sit and talk at the boardwalk (after i turned down him coming over late at night), and so i agreed. i wasn’t against sleeping with him, and told him so when we were texting, but i also didn’t want to see him just to have sex. i still have feelings for him and he knows that, and he claims he still loves me too. so we talked for a while and then he kissed me and we made out.

he kept pushing things further and i kept saying no, but eventually gave in. and it’s not that i didn’t want to sleep with him i just didn’t feel comfortable in that situation and so fast. we didn’t have sex in his car, as that’s illegal, but i snuck him into my room.

i don’t even know what my point is but i don’t want to tell my friends, and i just wanted to tell someone.

anything anyone has to say please do so! i feel like maybe i made a mistake or maybe i was just being used... idk