Okay so, my husband and I have an 11 month old daughter and my almost 6 y/o step son. We didn’t plan on anymore children whatsoever. My doctor switched my birth control because of my insurance and I got pregnant. We knew it was a possibility but just didn’t think it would happen. It took over a year to conceive our daughter so it just didn’t seem probable. Obviously we’re two consenting adults that made the decision to have unprotected sex (Twice, that’s it!) but I was still shocked when I took the test.

I just had a feeling I was pregnant, and I was right. This didn’t happen with my first, with her I was convinced that my period was late due to stress.

I feel terrible. I know so many people struggle to conceive and are so happy once they do, but I’m not happy. I’m incredibly anxiety ridden with this whole situation. I don’t know how to feel. I don’t want to tell people because we’ve made it known that we aren’t having more kids.

I know accident happen, after all, I was a “pleasant surprise” for my parents. I just feel very alone in this and ashamed of myself for feeling less than ecstatic.