“Then change it” What happens when you do try to change it but every friend you have ends up using you? Every man you get with ends up being a huge toxic disappointment? You try to only pick the good people but they still turn out bad. You try to do everything you can to make people happy but they just don’t give a fuck about you.

“Then love yourself” I do love myself. So much. I do many self care things everyday and I have hobbies. I stick to my boundaries. I know I’m deserving of goodness from others but I simply don’t receive it.

“It will get better” When? I literally don’t remember the last time I felt loved by anyone other than my parents.

So what else is there to do? I just hate this life.