My boyfriend was supposed to see me yesterday and he never came over. He said he would be over at 11:00 AM and I kept texting him asking him where he was at. It wasn't until 11:10 AM that he said "I didn't feel like coming over." It takes him an hour and 15 minutes to get to my house so it makes sense.

He promised we were going to have sex. We haven't had sex in 2 months because every time he came over I was on my period. I know he doesn't owe me sex, but it just hurts that he didn't come over and he said that he "didn't feel like it." It makes me feel so unwanted.

And now he's saying that he doesn't know when he will come over. I'm just sexually frustrated because I'm not getting the physical attention I need and I'm not satisfied. I need to have some sexy time with him. When we have sex, I feel satisfied, but rn I'm not satisfied with the fact that we haven't had sex in a while. I just want to feel loved. I feel so bad. 😭😭😭💔 I feel so unattractive and so unwanted.

Idk how to communicate to him how much I need physical contact rn.

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Edit: Maybe there are other things to consider with my post. He has called me beautiful all week and has been so sweet. We've been talking about marriage a lot recently. And he's been showing pictures of me to his entire family because I haven't been able to meet his cousins and uncle yet.

He's exhausted from having to travel a long distance to my house. I don't blame him. He did tell me a while ago that he wanted me to escape my house and come over to his house once in a while. I think that's the main problem as well.

Also, he admitted this morning that he feels distant given the circumstances - COVID 19 and my family situation. This happened in the middle of quarantine as well, but we made it work.

I want to know how I can communicate to him that I want to make this work. I'm trying to figure out how I can tell him about how I feel/what I need while asking him to give me feedback on what he needs/wants from me.

But I think the answer is clear: I should travel more often to see him.