Trigger warning... blighted ovum... kind words please..

Lydia

On Saturday I got two positive first response tests... only to start spotting that night, then to not even be able to sleep because of the contractions expelling what was inside... getting out of bed at 5:00 in the morning to take another test because I was so scared it was going to be negative, only to see it was fainter then the two previous tests... and while I was sitting on the toilet, blood poured out of me.... and ever since then it’s been just pouring out... just got back from the doctors and was told my urine test that I took there was now completely stark negative.... and it was more than likely a blighted ovum... and tonight I’m going in for a trans vaginal ultrasound to see if everything is out... and to get blood work to see if my hcg levels are down to nothing....

yesterday I felt like my heart got ripped out of my chest...

but somehow feel today that there is a bigger reason to why is was supposed to see those positive tests....