What is it ?

I’m a new first time mom, my baby is only a month but I wanna say maybe 2 weeks before she was even born I started feeling extremely overwhelmed . . And once she was born I felt so depressed i feel so horrible and undeserving of being a mother & super guilty even saying this but the moment she was handed to me I felt like I had no connection nothing like most moms explain their feeling towards their baby’s is when they’re first born 😞 . . It’s been a month & some days I still feel this way I’m constantly worried something is wrong with my baby or something will happen to her & I find myself just crying everyday not wanting to do anything . . I’ve never felt this way before .. not sure if it’s a case of baby blues or ppd ?