He Said I’m A Bad Mom

UPDATE: it feels like I wrote this days ago, not this morning. We continued to fight this morning and I continued to try and get away, just for him to follow and record me. I called my friend and she said to pack my stuff, that I was going to come stay with her. So I’ve been packing and trying to get things together. I’m scared. I’m a single mom of 3 kids, I’m scared I won’t be able to do this on my own. But I know I can figure this out! I reached out to a nursing home and the owner called me and said he’ll hire me on spot, I just have to come sign paperwork. Everything will come Together, I just know it.

Not trying to be rude but if any of y’all have an idea on how to leave, please help. Because I know I need to leave. I literally have no where to go. I called shelters, they’re all closed in my area or full. I have no family or friends. I have no money. Idk what to do.

My husband didn’t go to work today. Instead he got up at 4am and woke my kids up. So they crawled in bed with me, they are under 5. They couldn’t go back to sleep so I turned on cartoons in my room. Well they started jumping on me and fighting, so I obviously got pissed. I told them they have to go to their room and watch tv, laying with mama is over because we can’t be nice. My oldest who is 5 starts throwing a fit, so I told her I didn’t care if she wanted to stay In My room, it’s 6 am and I’m tired. So I put them in their room. Well then my baby woke up crying. I asked my husband if he would take the baby in the family room with him and he starts yelling at me to be a mother. I replied I am a mother and that he could help and to stop yelling me. He started throwing in my face how I’m a cunt and how I’m a shit mom and that’s why I was molested as a child (which makes no sense because I was a child, not a parent). So then I go to my room and shut the door, he follows me and keeps telling me I can keep the door open. I continued to shut it and he continued to open it. He told me I’m worthless and a bad mom and how I should take care of my kids better, all because I made them go to their room at 6 am! They’re not bothering him. He’s not watching them. So idk why he’s being such a dick, but he’s like this all the time here the past few months. I want out but I have no money, no job because he forces me to be a stay at home mom. I have no family or friends. Idk what to do.