Moving On

Hi, Maybe this isn’t completely relevant as I’m no longer in a relationship but I could use some advice. I went through a lot in my first relationship. It lasted a year and it didn’t end on a great note and then we got back together and it still wasn’t good which lasted another six months and then we broke up again only to hookup for another 5-6 months.

Point is we are finally at a place where we aren’t really contacting each other anymore and we don’t hookup and we tried the friend thing, sort of still trying but it’s more acquaintances than anything. He moved on before I did and idk I’m trying my hardest to move on. I’m not ready to put myself out there, but it’s hard sometimes. I feel like he’s completely moved on and I am stuck dwelling on the past while trying to move forward. It’s not working. I just want to move past heartbreak. We didn’t end on good terms both times we broke up and we still aren’t on the best terms now.

I was ready to just cut him off when I moved away for college but now it seems I’m stuck here and switching to a different college here and this makes it seem so much harder to cut him off. He was my best friend and my first love, I’m not sure how to move forward. We did have lots of issues and we became dependent on each other only for him to shut me out and treat me badly, causing this resentment on both sides from other thing I did in the past as well as how we both reacted to this distance. Not being able to talk to him or anyone around me because they don’t want to hear it makes me feel like I’m so alone most of the time especially now.

Any tips on how to really move on and heal and possibly one day being able to be good friends with an ex? Thank you to anyone who responds. I hope everyone who reads has a wonderful day!