I just need support

I just had my baby Monday and he’s so perfect in every way! He has a 2 year old big sister who’s obsessed with him and my heart is full.

But ..

I miss my belly already ☹️ I miss feeling his kicks inside me. I miss looking in the mirror and feeling nothing but joy and excitement for what’s to come. When we left the hospital it was very bittersweet. I cried because I personally enjoy every second being pregnant, especially since I’ve had a few loses. I don’t know exactly how to explain my feelings. It’s like being so in love but sad at the same time. I know the postpartum hormones have a lot to do with it so I try talking to my fiancé but he doesn’t know what to say back so he doesn’t say anything.