PAST TRAUMA AFFECTING ME

Hey,

3 years ago I was in a relationship where I was sexually and emotionally abused and then cheated on, I’ve only come to terms with this recently and accepted that this is what happened to me. It has affected me massively and now I am a super anxious and paranoid person. I have a new partner and we have been together a year and a half, he is amazing, patient, helps with my mental health, gives me unlimited support and reassurance, compliments me and I couldn’t ask for anyone better. The only issue here is me, I feel as though I’m a bad girlfriend as I get overly worried in fear of being betrayed again, he will always show his phone and reassure me for hours if I’m anxious but I just can’t help like feeling like a burden. I’ve told him it’s okay if he wants to leave me but he says he loves me and wants to help me. I just want some advice on how I can be a better girlfriend. I tell him how thankful I am for him helping me and I would always do the same for him if he ever needed support.

How can I learn to trust him and how can I show that I really am thankful for everything he does for me.

Thank you x

Side note: I have just got a counsellor and he has told me he is so proud of me