Beyond stressed

I’m losing my mind being a stay at home mom. I’ve been extremely stressed and feel burnt out. I never have time to myself. I love my kids I have an 8 month old and 3 year old. But I never get a break or time to myself. My husband thinks he’s being helpful by taking the baby while I cook and clean sometimes but gives her right back as soon as I’m done. He doesn’t understand that it’s not a break for me, yea it’s easier to cook and clean without holding a baby but it’s not a BREAK.

The baby doesn’t sleep through the night, she’s up at LEAST 5 times a night (already spoke to a sleep therapist) and he won’t get up ever to help unless I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown or I leave her crying in her crib. I feel bad and hate the cry it out method. But I have had to leave her crying and leave the room for the past week. I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this running on 4 hours of broken sleep and dishes, cooking 3x a day, cleaning all day, laundry, everything constantly I never get 1 second to myself. Not even to enjoy a meal or use the bathroom.

Sorry for the long post just had to vent.