Feeling hopeless

Update: My husband and I decided to test today 5dp5dt and look at this surprise 🙏❤😍 What a difference 2 days make.

Wednesday we transferred our beautiful hatching embryo, I'm officially 3dp5dt. At first I felt completely normal which worried me, no cramping no nothing. I prayed for signs of implantation. Yesterday I started to feel mild cramps and it has continued but for some reason I feel sad and worrried that this won't work. I have no self control and of course I tested yesterday and today knowing damn well it would be negative. Why do I do this to myself? 😭😢 I don't know 😔 I packed all my pregnancy tests and gaved them to my husband. He will be hiding them until Wednesday morning.