He Wanted to Take a Break

Hey everyone,

I’ve been dating a guy for a year and 5 months now. Let me tell you it hasn’t been easy. But, I really do love him. I’m a college student who was forced to quit her job on campus because of COVID. Ever since school went online I’ve been living back at home until the semester starts again. I haven’t found a job because I live with someone who is high risk. My family thought it would be best if we limit how many people we see and who goes to the grocery store. Which left me giving up my job which I’m okay with because I saved a lot.

I haven’t been okay in the relationship department because my family is very traditional and won’t let me have my boyfriend stay over. They also won’t let me stay with him. Which I totally get and respect. Plus with the virus going on having a lot of people in our house just wouldn’t be right. Plus me going back and forth wouldn’t be safe. He’s come into the house a few times. But those times he wasn’t going to see a lot of people and didn’t have a job because of Covid so he would literally just come and see me and that was it.

I’m so happy he got a job and is working hard I guess I’m just running out of ideas on how to make this work during this time. We’ve tried Skyping, having him come out and just chill with me outside. I feel he misses the adventures we could be having and all the memories we could be making. I miss all the plans I had made for this summer with him but, I don’t want to be selfish and go spread something if I have it.

Last night we got into an argument and he brought up wanting to take a break. I guess I just don’t feel like I’m enough for him right now and it makes me sad. I just wanna make this work and he really does to I can just feel he’s tired of waiting and it’s killing me. We are still together but I just feel stuck.

I just want the virus to clear so the world can heal. ❤️

(Sorry this is so long I just need advice and I don’t know where to turn because I don’t wanna bug people around me.)