Today I found out that my boyfriend’s been telling people I’m pregnant and lying about it to me.... I was on his Snapchat taking selfies cause he likes when I do that. And i also snapped a couple of people and then my hand kinda slipped and I accidentally tapped someone’s bitmoji and I saw that he had sent her a pic of my pregnancy test.... so I went into their conversation and scrolled until I saw it and read from there (cause I wanted to know what they were saying about it) and a little bit down I saw that she asked if I had asked my mom (which I hadn’t at the time and he said that) and then she said “Well she should cause she’s showing really early”.... but I’m not showing at all, and even if I was idk how she could have known that cause I haven’t posted on Instagram or really even taken any body pictures since I found out. And to make it worse.... he agreed with her about it.... and now I’m feeling kinda self conscious about how I look...

And then tonight we went for a little drive and we saw this girl walking (she looked smaller / skinnier than me) and he said to me that she looks like she could use the exercise. And that made me super insecure too because she looked skinnier than me (and I’m not a big girl like I’m fairly skinny I think). And I told him that it made me feel kinda insecure and he just said “Well I don’t want you to be super skinny or workout” and like I get that, that must means he likes me for how I look now but if I wanted to lose weight and stuff I feel like he wouldn’t support me....

Then I remembered that he was texting this one girl all day when him and I were at the beach and he told her that I was pregnant too (without my knowledge). So he has told at least 4 people (the other 2 being his mom and best friend which I knew and was okay with him telling). And I’m just kinda scared that he’s going around telling everyone I’m pregnant.... the only person I’ve told is my mom and he’s told so many people...... and lying to me about it. Cause just yesterday I asked if he had told anyone else and he said no. (And he told the 2 other girls over a week ago)

Sorry idk what I’m trying to get out of this and Ik it’s kinda all over the place but I just needed to get this out of my system and I literally have no friends I could say this kind of thing to... so sorry for ranting....