Okay, first, I know I won’t know until I test and that I probably should. But I have seen this play out too many times only to end in heartbreak, I get excited and then the test is negative. So I guess I’m just waiting until I’m almost absolutely positive.

Here’s what’s going on...

I normally start on cd 30-31. Last month I started cd 35. I was excited but not too excited because I was cramping off and on, even put in a tampon a few times because I was sure I’d start. I ended up starting the morning of day 35.

Here’s what’s different this month. I had my normal period symptoms (tired, headache, food aversion, etc). Everything but the cramps. And normally these symptoms last until my period actually starts and then once my period starts I feel so much better. But cd 34 came and I was expecting it to be just as brutal as the other 3 days, but I woke up and felt so much better minus a slight headache. Today is day 35 no cramps, I feel great but also minus an underlying headache. I will say cd 33 I did cramp enough to feel like I might start, went to dinner and brought a tampon just in case, but it went away pretty quick and nothing really since.

I have been feeling some weird twinges near my belly button. It feels like someone is pinching the inside near my belly button (only way I can describe it) it’s quick and not painful, but noticeable.

And around cd 32-33 (I can’t remember exactly) I had a literal rush of watery cm. I didn’t think much of that because I know cm doesn’t mean much. Just sharing.

Sooo with all of that being said, I just need to know some thoughts. I want to test, but I am scared. I’m scared that I’m expecting to see a positive and it’ll actually be negative, so I guess I just want to be super sure. 😬😬😬😬