Its like everything freaks me out.

Worried i dont have nausea.. maybe its not going ok.

Worried if im cramping on the left side .. maybe is an ectopic.

Worried if i read someone had 2 miscarriages one after the other.. what if it happens to me

Worried about literally anything.

Worried about telling my mom or sister.. just worrying all the time

Testing and retesting, and if one brand has a lighter line than other one worrying about that.

Is like the past miscarriage not only took that baby but took my ability to believe or trust.

Im Constantly praying, and choosing to be happy and try an enjoy this, but the worrying just sneaks on my when i least expect it, dreading the first appointment out of fear of bad news instead of excitement to meet our little rainbow.

Its so hard, i was not expecting all this feelings to hit me so hard, how do you cope with the anxiety?