Abortion

Idrk where else to talk about this, my period was supposed to come on the 20th of July I had unprotected sex with my boyfriend on the 6th of July. Im late by 5 days and I’m going to take a test on Monday but I’m afraid that it’ll be positive. If it is, I will have to get an abortion because Ik I’m not prepared mentally for a child like literally I’m already depressed now without knowing if I’m even pregnant and i also fear postpartum depression which i know I’ll have if I have a baby right now. Idek if anyone will read this but ig i just wanted to vent lol😞