Feeling the need to hide this pregnancy

I just recently found out I was pregnant with baby #2 but 3rd pregnancy (I had a MC last month). I should be jumping up and down for joy right? After letting it sink in, I realize that I didn’t have as much support as I thought for my MC so I don’t see why this would be any different. I don’t have any friends either. My husband doesn’t like to talk much about it because of how bad mentally the miscarriage was on us before. He doesn’t want to get all excited. I just feel the need to not tell anyone for a while. And the need to not tell anyone if I have another MC either.

Just wondering if any other mamas have gone through this? Honestly, I’m feeling pretty alone. I want to be happy right now, but really I’m crying.

I have suffered from depression and anxiety for many years so naturally I had PPD as well.