*sigh* I want to be happy. I love him, but I'm not happy in this marriage. I try to tell him because I dont want to be selfish. I want him to find true love. But my heart cant let go. I want to let him go I want him to do better. I tried being my very best. I tried being the good girlfriend that he use to know, but it's hard forgetting his past actions. I fight a battle everyday trying to figure out what is best for both of us. Never knew the meaning of the mind vs the heart until NOW... my mind tells me I can do better, that my heart is tired of loving him, its painful loving him. But my heart, even tho it has shattered so many time it tries everyday to love harder because he changed so much. He has tried his very best to gain my trust back. He has tried his very best to give me the world after he knew he fucked up....