32weeker ..any mommas have their baby about the same time and are experiencing any slow delays on their learnings?

Hello mommas! My son was born at 32eeeks. Due to low fluids and high heart rates. He was in NICU Stay for about 18days. Low eating,jaundice,preemie,and he was also diagnosed with superventricular tachycardia known as S.V.T ..any mommas out there have any babies with the same condition..if so ..how are you going about it? Or just with a preemie period ..im having a hard time with my son ..and its my fourth. I feel as if I've never raised a child before and im lost in the process. My son cries ALL THE TIME..after even trying everything possible ..even baths sometimes ..just cries. Sometimes I wanna cry with. Just overwhelmed on top of three other toddlers. He also eats VERY VERY messy. I know messy is to be expected but, my son really goes through about 3bibs on 1 4oz feeding ...is that normal? Like that much milk drip? I don't remember my others being that way. Just ......different baby. I know their all different ..ofcourse. but my child is .......hard to understand ....any mommas out there?

Sorry for the long post ..just needed to vent.😔❤