I’m not currently TTC but at the same time we’re not using any protection. I’m still night nursing and also since I’m 30 now I just would rather stay off bc if we aren’t 100% about being done. I was on the mini pill last summer but once I ran out my insurance had changed and I didn’t want to mess with refilling it assuming I wasn’t going to last this long nursing. Hubby knows this, knows my feelings that I wouldn’t mind having a 3rd. He says he doesn’t at this time but also is not doing anything about preventing (condoms or pulling out)

Which brings us to now. normally we’re not very active and tend to avoid my “fertile” times anyway. But last time we didn’t. We couldn’t have timed it better if we were trying. I took a ovulation test the next morning after realizing I was smack in my fertile time to see if I actually was and it was the darkest line I’ve ever seen on one.

So now we have the wait til my period is due (the 8th, my cycle is around 41 days but has regularly been that way since I got my period back) and I hate the wait. I’m trying not the think about it but since deep down I have baby fever it feels like back when we were trying for our youngest.

Which there are also a lot of eerie similarities with the dates with my cycle now and when I got pregnant last. So the more I think about it the more I can’t help but be excited at the possibility even though the timing would be super stressful. Therefore I wish I could just take a test now and know so I can put it out of my head.

And then if we aren’t have a real discussion with my hubby about if we really aren’t ready we need to do better at prevention 😂

* to add I’m not sure I posted this to the right groups but I wasn’t sure what category this falls in. I’m in my 2 week wait so that’s what I based it on 🤷🏼‍♀️