I hate this!!!!

Just got my period. CD2 now, startes letrozole. Married for 18 months. My family is forever asking me about a baby and Im always thinking to myself "no shit assholes, im fucking trying" (noone knows we're TTC). A colleague just got back from maternity, she keeps telling me "you better start, I'll have my second one and you'd still be waiting" or my personal favourite "you're 31, you're so old already. I dont want to have kids that late" and now, my family emasculates my husband because allllll the cousins have kids YET im the only one who finished college, bought a house and waited to get married. "What kind of man cant impregnate his wife? Is everything okay?" how about, "wow your husband is so successful and providing for you, how is the adjustment to marriage? " nope. None of that. Just baby, baby, baby. I would LOVE to be a mother, id LOVE to create a human with the person I love more than anything in this world but apparently, my uterus is more stubborn than I am. I feel like less of a woman, I feel like my body is failing me, I feel like im failing my husband, I feel frustrated, I feel lost, I feel hurt, I feel angry but above all? I just feel broken. Suffering in silence, putting up a smile and pretending like Im okay and that we have other plans. Im busy losing myself. I am eternally grateful for my supportive husband. Thank you for listening guys. I needed this.